Our deepest desires:fantasy or reality?

There is always that one thing at a particular point in time,which is our deepest ,most desired desire.
Getting hooked with the cutest guy/gal in school,buying that new cool gadget,getting that dream job? so what happens next?

While a lot of us do end up burying those desires and moving on in life by convincing ourselves nah, it aint possible.I must admit so tempting do our dreams look in that glass shelf ,that finally achieving them is never that satisfying,at least in the long run.


When you do get that dream job or car, you cant believe it ,you are on top of the world,the happiest you have ever been ,you feel like pinching yourself ,its hard to explain this feeling,believing that this day finally came in your life.

But as time passes by,there is so much newness to your life, new challenges, now your priorities are how to survive,to give time to everything,to balance life,your concerns change,everything changes,so buried do you get in your new life that you cant help laughing,thinking, that at one point in your time,this is what you most wanted but could have given everything and anything for it,there are other mountains you want to conquer,the everyday happenings,no matter how much u plan there is always a new scenario,a new situation unfolds.Sometimes u wish it would have been so much better had u not got your wish in the first place,because it looked so great as a fantasy.

For those of us who think why dint i get what i wanted and he/she did,although it was undeserved,here is one thing to remember,there is an end to everything, even we as humans will end(die), so even if you do achieve those dreams in your life along with all the pros and cons ,So when all ends,EVERYTHING becomes nothing.


Heres to still having faith in your dreams but not losing hope,dint get what you wanted?not the end of the world.

broke,broke,broke..

So i dont know if keeping your blog open to all people is the best idea..bt yea..i do write when im really off the hook,down the drain, have completely lost it,broke is the word.so its easy to relate my posts with sadness and the feelings of emptiness..

But ya im just here trying to figure out why do the things which happen ..happen to you?thy say thy happen for the best..i did realise it onc when i was blessed by smthng much greatr thn the former and found myself in peace ..just to witness it slip off my hands once again when it was so closee..that i could feel it, i could feel the love in the air,the bluues,the butterflies,the magic,the "this is the right" feeling,it was meant to be cz ur a disobedient child?ud value all ppl else above yr parents/family, ud prioritise evry tiny whiny eveythng abv ppl who rightly dsrv to b on the top spot?

but yet again i cant help bt think tht the world is full of selfish people whod do sh**t with everyone nd ul find them to b the most successful,top notch,get what thy want people..is ita accomplic of selfish peopl,u cnt agree..who wd sy u hvnt been selfish in ur choices,not evn urself,u wud fail to sy tht ur the bettr of the lot, keep aside the most pious.
you do feel at tymes lik killimg urself when you see the most"geek"typ of friends,or those u thght dint have mch or any charisma,ending up with happy endings nd u go wttt?out of all the ppl in the wrld..he/she?
"all the best stories have tragic endings",u can satisfy urself tht way bt wt if i dont wnt the best stry?id b hppy with an ok story..with a happy ending?its like a continuous ongoing battle within urself..in deciding if u r the worst creature alive who deserves nothing gud to hppen with him or thinking tht bad thngs alwys happen with gd ppl...who knows whts right..eithr way ur the loser..nd havng to spend evryday tryng to figure owt whr did u go wrong or tht how gloomy u see ur future to be.,or is it being too farigh?

either ways the mystery remains unsolved,u mite call it fate so all tht ws meant to b,had u tried or not ,all those ppl came to ur life just to teach u some "lessons" did v evn nid those fu**ing lessons?(ya mayb to help owt some othr ppl in the same situation,lame) or mybe to show tht u dont av ny cntrl ovr ur life whtsoevr happens,so why do v evn have a brain in the first place,the power to think,calculate,observe,gvng urself false hopes whod shatter so easily u cdnt see the direction whre the wind came frm..hw cn u thn sit nd sy u knw..it wd hv smthng gd in it tht i cant see..oh comeonnn..am i being thankless,of all the things i av been blessed with..mayb it is how it seems..