Our deepest desires:fantasy or reality?

There is always that one thing at a particular point in time,which is our deepest ,most desired desire.
Getting hooked with the cutest guy/gal in school,buying that new cool gadget,getting that dream job? so what happens next?

While a lot of us do end up burying those desires and moving on in life by convincing ourselves nah, it aint possible.I must admit so tempting do our dreams look in that glass shelf ,that finally achieving them is never that satisfying,at least in the long run.


When you do get that dream job or car, you cant believe it ,you are on top of the world,the happiest you have ever been ,you feel like pinching yourself ,its hard to explain this feeling,believing that this day finally came in your life.

But as time passes by,there is so much newness to your life, new challenges, now your priorities are how to survive,to give time to everything,to balance life,your concerns change,everything changes,so buried do you get in your new life that you cant help laughing,thinking, that at one point in your time,this is what you most wanted but could have given everything and anything for it,there are other mountains you want to conquer,the everyday happenings,no matter how much u plan there is always a new scenario,a new situation unfolds.Sometimes u wish it would have been so much better had u not got your wish in the first place,because it looked so great as a fantasy.

For those of us who think why dint i get what i wanted and he/she did,although it was undeserved,here is one thing to remember,there is an end to everything, even we as humans will end(die), so even if you do achieve those dreams in your life along with all the pros and cons ,So when all ends,EVERYTHING becomes nothing.


Heres to still having faith in your dreams but not losing hope,dint get what you wanted?not the end of the world.

broke,broke,broke..

So i dont know if keeping your blog open to all people is the best idea..bt yea..i do write when im really off the hook,down the drain, have completely lost it,broke is the word.so its easy to relate my posts with sadness and the feelings of emptiness..

But ya im just here trying to figure out why do the things which happen ..happen to you?thy say thy happen for the best..i did realise it onc when i was blessed by smthng much greatr thn the former and found myself in peace ..just to witness it slip off my hands once again when it was so closee..that i could feel it, i could feel the love in the air,the bluues,the butterflies,the magic,the "this is the right" feeling,it was meant to be cz ur a disobedient child?ud value all ppl else above yr parents/family, ud prioritise evry tiny whiny eveythng abv ppl who rightly dsrv to b on the top spot?

but yet again i cant help bt think tht the world is full of selfish people whod do sh**t with everyone nd ul find them to b the most successful,top notch,get what thy want people..is ita accomplic of selfish peopl,u cnt agree..who wd sy u hvnt been selfish in ur choices,not evn urself,u wud fail to sy tht ur the bettr of the lot, keep aside the most pious.
you do feel at tymes lik killimg urself when you see the most"geek"typ of friends,or those u thght dint have mch or any charisma,ending up with happy endings nd u go wttt?out of all the ppl in the wrld..he/she?
"all the best stories have tragic endings",u can satisfy urself tht way bt wt if i dont wnt the best stry?id b hppy with an ok story..with a happy ending?its like a continuous ongoing battle within urself..in deciding if u r the worst creature alive who deserves nothing gud to hppen with him or thinking tht bad thngs alwys happen with gd ppl...who knows whts right..eithr way ur the loser..nd havng to spend evryday tryng to figure owt whr did u go wrong or tht how gloomy u see ur future to be.,or is it being too farigh?

either ways the mystery remains unsolved,u mite call it fate so all tht ws meant to b,had u tried or not ,all those ppl came to ur life just to teach u some "lessons" did v evn nid those fu**ing lessons?(ya mayb to help owt some othr ppl in the same situation,lame) or mybe to show tht u dont av ny cntrl ovr ur life whtsoevr happens,so why do v evn have a brain in the first place,the power to think,calculate,observe,gvng urself false hopes whod shatter so easily u cdnt see the direction whre the wind came frm..hw cn u thn sit nd sy u knw..it wd hv smthng gd in it tht i cant see..oh comeonnn..am i being thankless,of all the things i av been blessed with..mayb it is how it seems..

"i wud remain guilty forever"ws the last sentence he spoke ..
it just blew her...she was still as if her heart had stopped beating..overwhelmed by fear thinking if she did breathe she wud loose track of things ...tht jst happend so instantly she dint hv tim to compose erself...

hollow..

this is something that i wrote...


Drenched in hollowness..lost in divine..
Every morning when i get up it.. takes me a day to realize...
its over..
A mere glimpse..sends stenghth enuf to drain life out of my soul...
the..shatered...abondoned..
devoid...soul...
The emptiness that haunts within..is occassionaly masked by a smile...
to keep some hopes alive..
to show them..its still..
alrit!

No mans land...

Its always a struggle between people and God..
When given an option between God nd people..most of the times we choose people (for eg when we wre in trouble...we need help we turn to people )
so when those people do bad with us or dont respond or dont wna help us or arent there n v have no options left we turn to God...
because thats now our only resort left. He who was even and always there when we were seeking help elsewhere...so why do we even expect HIM to help us..

I would feel outraged if i said to a friend hy..il alwys b there when u need me..bt in times of sadness.. even then he prefered to consult every other source before each of em let him down nd atlast he came to me..did he thought i wont be able to help him?or now tht all his sources have exhausted him n turned him down hes come to me...?am i the last resort?why couldnt he thnk of me befor whereas i told him in the first place id b there..

sounds funny though..cz we humans as being able to do very less..v have an inherent limitation of not being able to do much...and lets face it v cant do more than some counseling or praying(whch does help smtimes)so y do v feel so mad???nd angry ...wt could we have done??i mit not even bother to listen to him.

how would He feel who has endless powers n limitless capacity to do eveythng n hs repeatedly told us He will b there...bt inspite of tht v prfr evry human existent on the planet least those v know..over Him..whose capable of doin everythn v r going to ppl who themselves r at His mercy...over Him n infront of Him v seek help frm His creatures..

bt then again everytime doesnt God help us?how wd it make Him feel..y arent v there when He needs us??

same is the case with parents when thy need us we are nvr thr fr them..bt in trouble momm..gives us an instant reply nd instant help of wtevr shes capable of..n fathr too ofcourse..so is giving birth to us their fault whch thy hv to pay fr..for the rest of their lives?we value a litle help frm outsde more thn our parents entire lives and fortunes hv given us nd wud continue to gv us...

kudos!!

ws jst wtchng hum tvs 4th annvrsry...so hppy to c pakistnai drama revive once again n v hv got smffn originalll whch is totlly MADE IN PAKISTAN...:)...the simplicty....the grt stories ..dark realities of life...of society...its jst so amaznnng...n esp. all the yng n grt strs cming tgtha n gvn their best!! finly gtn to wtch paki drama wdout the indian copied dishum dshum star plus bulsht....

n yaa saw mje apna bna lo...tht drama alwys drvs me to tears..one of the few though...mst syy ayshas khan acts mrvllous!!its a stry bout hy bbb contnued...

gmee a break

ds a tim whn lifs mst fckd up..ur at home....prnts xpct u to do a zillion thngs ..u end up doing none...n u gt to hear all the shoutngs n all the cursings whch ends up mking u feel guilty n ys the biggest loooserrr on earth!! ofcrse..

u c married couples fighting the whole tim mstly cz of their kids mks u wnder is ds y mriags r fr?nthr reson ud lik to run awy frm getn maried if ths d way ull b treatd in a cple of yrs or myb in the strt evn...so is it jst to gm em plsre or stsfy the sciety??i mean gmme a brek!!!..

evn though ur blssd heavlyyy..thoughts cmin to ur mind tht y cnt i get wt i wnt or lts sy wnt ths dys or in the future...frgttng evry grt thng uv evr bin blssd of..nva thght vctions wd really wnt u to strt stdy again??i mean gimme a break the thought of stdies wd lightn u up...or evn the thought of doing job n styn bzzzyyyy..

n the ofcrse teachng ur sibzz....one thng whch u cd hv dne fr em in ur entre lif bt u stl dn want to ...i mean...gm a brk...y is it tht u kipall the pstv thngs bhnd n focs only on the ngtiv ones???lik thrs so mch to lif..rit hw cm v frgt all dt??n bcm lzyyy n nt intrstd n crelss bout nyfnn possble..

u sleep late in the dy aftr all ur fam hs gottn up...aint a grt thng huh n dn help ny bt feel lik a crrook whs dn the bggst crme on earth n a strt to anthr stuppid dy....

although im one of thz prsns who hs nva gvn nyfn to any of my rltionshps esp.fam n nva really hv tried or bothred to do nyffn fr ny1 ...thrs jst ds one rltionshp to whch i gave my hrt n soul ..lik vryfnn....bt im stil insecure...so i gs iv faild as a prson in vry way....myb thts Gods way of showng me hw ppl feel whn i do bad to thm esp.fam who giv evryffn to me...lik i did to the rltion...

so hea iam the biggst loosr bout to bcm an acca affiliate.insh.. myb nxth or in the nxt 6 mths...


hv realisd tht lif luks nva mtr...ppl stl dn end up lvng u or thnking ur the mst imp.prsn in their lives jst cz u av gt luks....u dn bcm sm1s bstffriend jst cx u av luks...u dn get a jb jst cx u av luks u dn getg a gd spouse jst bcz of ur luks or atlst the prsn u wnt..

as a friend of mine once sd ...
sb maya he....